Who in your life do you spend the most time with……your mind, that machine that never truly shuts down and one that has been silently programming itself throughout the years.
In my case over the years as I’ve struggled with depression, self-hate, shame, eating disorders I have hardwired my mind to a certain way of thinking, one that does nothing but fear.
Through the ups and downs of my life my mind has learned that if you fear something than I shouldn’t go forward I should stay as I am, that way there is no consequence of failure, nothing can go wrong, right? I’ve realized that I need to thank my mind for trying to protect me, trying to avoid pain and hurt.
The thoughts of self-hatred and shame I’ve programmed into my mind because of my weight have taken a toll. My mind fears more pain and shame if I was to try and change and then what if I fail.
Fear: an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.
The tactic to try and overcome my mind that is so distraught with fear it has been frozen in an ice age for the last three years……to simply thank my mind. After all it’s only trying to protect me from pain, something I’ve experienced enough of, so I’ve programmed it to be wary of everything that could cause pain.
My mind trying to protect me in the end has hurt me endlessly, I try nothing new and the situation and thought patterns there for don’t change.
I thank my mind for trying to protect me, then think what my goals are and am I letting my mind steer me towards my goals or away from them. What are my values? Is my mind steering me towards my values or away by making the decision that is in question.
The verdict: My Mind Is Not My Friend……….although it seeks to protect with all of the thoughts it send out that constantly swirl around and repeat in my brain, they are thoughts I need to diffuse. I need to diffuse from my mind…….wish me luck.
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