GOAL 30/THIRTY

Twenty seven down and less than three to go till thirty!

The perfect age to make a wish and goal come true, what is yours?

For G's 30th birthday I surprised him with a trip to Viva Las Vegas with our best friends, (a place he had been wanting to go) its a trip he talks about monthly and I am so happy we went and he has special memories to remember this special time in life.

Since our trip in September 2015, I have tried to come up with a location or activity that I wanted to do to celebrate my 30th year in life. I have gone back and fourth with a meaningful trip to Ireland to connect with my Irish roots. Or should i dip my feet in the ocean on a beautiful beach in Jamaica or Hawaii. With so many beautiful beaches and destinations i felt overwhelmed trying to pick the right one. I felt the need to pre-pick as I wanted plenty of time save for the vacation.

I decided to ask myself what I wanted out of this vacation and how I wanted to feel while their, this is for me and I want to enjoy and cherish every minute of it.

While scrolling through Instagram a few weeks ago I noticed stunning photos of  Amalfi Coast - Positano Italy, such mesmerizing beauty, i felt a calm wash over me each time i looked at a picture from this breathtaking place. I never feel as though i can slow my breath living with anxiety but when i look at pictures of those places i feel relaxed and calm like my whole body deeply breathing. I now know exactly where i want to go for my 30th birthday. It may be a very long flight, it may be very pricey, but for me this is what i want, this is what i need. I'm going to make it happen.

Italy or bust!!
xo

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DREAMS CRAZY DREAMS

I have always tried to contain my dreams and wishes in a very realistic attainable fashion. While this is practical and keeps things easy and simple and fear of failure at bay, it stifles my creativity and puts a limit on your mind.
I've realized i don't want to have a limit on my mind, what is the fun in that? No fun..that's what it is. I'm going to take the first step and write out my dreams as crazy as they are in a this blog post.....writing them is almost as nerve racking as saying them out loud and not adding....I know their just dreams i wont accomplish them. I'm taking those words out and just writing...just dreaming. Everyone has the right to dream as wildly and free as humanly possible.

Dreams Crazy Dreams:

I would love for my blog to have helped someone, anyone, just one would be amazing
I would love to look back and think i have had a passion and talent for writing
I dream one day i will be brave enough to show my blog to family and friends
I dream one day to sit in a bikini by the water and be focused on that moment not the way my body looks
I dream of a job working at home, being my own boss or working for a company setting my own schedule
I dream of travelling, Ireland, Hawaii, Italy, O.C., and beautiful beaches everywhere.
I dream of being in control of how my mind thinks about me and loving myself
I dream of feeling good in my body, healthy and capable
I dream of a healthy intimate relationship with the man i love
I dream of the day i love myself enough to pledge my commitment and love to someone else in marriage
I dream of the day when i feel purposeful and have made a life worth living
I dream of being selfless and remembering to do things for myself
I dream of being successful in a creative blogging field
I dream of one day being able to drive a motor bike
I dream of having amazing photos taken of me and G, ones we love to display
I dream of doing a goofy photo shoot to show me and Gs playful sides
I dream of doing a personal photo shoot just for G ;)

Dream madly in all that you do for their is no limitations on dreaming except the ones you put on yourself.

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WHEN LIFE CLICKS

Life can be so incredibly random at times its hard to comprehend, but yes its the most amazing feeling when one small sliver in life palls into place and feels like perhaps your on the right path after all.

High School for me was a long 8 years ago and while I've stayed in touch with a few of my high school classmates, most of them I have fallen out of touch. Its what happens after you graduate and move into different directions in life. I've thought of my past friends and where their lives might be now and if they ever wonder what I'm doing or if i will see their faces again.

Would i want to, would they know its me? Well....that's just what happened this week. Into my office walks a curly red haired beauty with the sweetest most amazing smile you'll ever encounter. 8 years since i had seen her but hug we did. It felt amazing and so needed, but for a reason i had yet to find out.

We did not get to visit as working comes first when your on the job, but a sweet Facebook message i did receive the following day, she had beat me to it as i was going to do the same. This message was as sweet as she always had been. With a few short paragraphs i encountered more similarities that i ever thought possible. Was this chance encounter meant to be? It felt like exactly that. Fast forward to a morning of messaging and phone numbers exchanged and future visits planned we both felt that was meant to happen and thankful we had gotten the chance to reconnect.

I am so excited to have reconnected with an old friend and so quickly established a bond over mutual hardships we both have been experiencing; i.e. depression, anxiety, weight. I would like to keep her specifics of course private but the fact that i have found an old friend who has gone through such similar issues is as she stated: "a much needed breath of fresh air".

Sometimes when you least expect it life can just...click....

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WEEKLY WASH

SO FRESH AND SO CLEAN, CLEAN!

I have been on the hunt since I started makeup to find and then try every makeup cleaner on the market from high end to low end, while they did as they said, cleaned my brushes.
I still wasn't satisfied, I felt my brushes were taking a beating and either had makeup residue left or cleaner residue left.

Then I seen a post about Boulevard Cosmetics Brush Cleaner & Conditioner and decided it would be next on my list to try.......I have never been more satisfied with a products claims! 

It was exactly that a brush cleaner that cleaned my brushes with such ease and effectiveness it was almost unbelievable, after my brushes dried they were soft and conditioned and felt better! I have been hooked! Plus its all you need, the lid has a little Velcro patch to scrub your brushes with that works great, an all in one system.

I buy mine on Morphe Brushes.............p.s. the hunts over why look more, I love it!!

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MONDAY MOTIVATION AND THINKING.........

MONDAY MOTIVATION AND THINKING.........

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MAD ABOUT MAD HATTER

The title of this post is pretty self-explanatory, everything and anything to do with Alice & Wonderland I am obsessed with! I love Disney’s Alice in Wonderland and Tim Burton’s version, the new movie coming out by Tim Burton is Alice through the looking Glass, and I am soooo excited! Johnny dep’s Mad Hatter character was brilliant in my opinion.

I loved the reading the book growing up and recently bought a copy to put on my book shelf for my office.

What I adore is the concept of Alice being so lost and confused in a world that makes no sense, but who says that the world or any world has to in fact make sense? Does anything these days? I love that Alice grows with confidence and learns to become strong throughout her journey. Its words I definitely relate to and for that I would say lead to my obsession.

Anyone else obsessed with a story that has evolved into movies over time?

I’d love to hear! 

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ME MYSELF AND I

The last few weeks I have wondered why I put so much of myself into others happiness and not my own. The worse I feel, the more depressed I am feeling the more I will try and make my loved ones days and lives better. That could mean buying a small gift or expensive gift I know they have been wanting or it could be as simple as an iced coffee delivered at break time.

I hardly say no, even though I have blogged about trying to stop that habit. It’s still something I struggle with.

The days after doing kinds things I am left wondering why I don’t feel that same love and appreciation back, that doesn’t mean I am angry with my loved ones for not doing what I do for them, it just makes me wonder and brews negative thoughts that I am not worthy.

I realized that I need to start treating myself the way I want to be treated by others. By this I mean I am worth taking care of.

I made a list of things I want to start working on incorporating into my daily life:

Bubble Baths

Picture Taking

Blogging

Exercising including Yoga

Spa Nights; mani pedis, masks, hair masks, long hot showers with body scrubs and lotion

Gel Nails

Sitting outside in our yard listening to music and reading books

These are just a few things I want to do to indulge myself and make myself a priority, I’m starting small and working towards more goals, long time goal is that old cliché saying: Loving Myself”.

You are worth spoiling my loves, put yourself first.

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