I'm sitting in my hotel room not knowing if I should quit crying or cry more.
What was a very long stressful nerve filled day ended with excitement or so I thought. The only thing I dislike about knowing all of Gs body language is when I can sense when their is something he won't tell me. In the past I know I have made it hard for him to express himself without me getting upset however withholding communication is harmful to a relationship and not tolerable to me.
The more I poke and prod the words come out, he is not in favour of a decision o have made today, one I've been contemplating for 12+ years.
The tears fall and my cheeks burn, I loose my breath, head pounds and heart falls to the sound of my feet. My rock of a support system is it behind me.
This is such meshing I'm doing for myself. When I use my rational brain and try and calm myself down to understand his concerns I realize they are valid concerns but the words still cut like s knife from the one I love.
I didn't expect to encounter any obsticles because this is one of the only things I'm doing for myself. I didn't expect this from him, not now. Not when I'm so close. Do I postpone what I want or push through without his 100% support.
I'm left confused and worried and unsure.
Is he right, am I right. What is right?
